foster, silas w.

[silas foster]

SILAS W. FOSTER . TWENTY-FIVE PORTLAND NATIVE . LOS ANGELES LIVING INVESTMENT SPECIALIST ____________________________ LIKES---- social gatherings, working out, IPA’s, motorcycles, rain, black coffee, nudes, 90’s rap, all nighters, grilled cheese, make up sex, vintage cars, sunday football, dive bars, levi’s, blondes, black lace, tom ford noir, thanksgiving, marlboro reds, conspiracy theories DISLIKES---- cherries, gambling, traveling, breakfast, big cities, forgetting to shut the garage, LA traffic, soccer, juicing, kim kardashian, losing, being told what to do, christmas songs, early mornings, hypersensitive people ____________________________ PROS---- loyal, sociable, generous, fun loving, passionate, open minded, hard working, intuitive, adventurous, charming CONS---- gives into temptation, need for instant gratification, short tempered, jealous, easily bored, stubborn, irrational ____________________________ WHAT'S IN MY GLOVE BOX? ____________________________ silas has always been so protective over samantha and i. when his dad and i got divorced, he thought he had to assume the role of the man of the house, so much so that when his dad and i considered giving things another shot, he threatened to be the one to leave this time. i’ll always be grateful for that, but at times i wish he hadn’t put the responsibility on himself. he worked extra jobs to help pay the bills for the house, he scared samantha’s boyfriends shitless, he made us chocolate chip cookies whenever he could sense that it was our time, that poor boy! but in doing that, it was hard for me to get mad at him for doing certain things i normally would have. his grades were just good enough to get by, i caught him ditching school and at home in bed with his girlfriend ten too many times, he got into fights at bars he shouldn’t have been in over the weekend, and still, i couldn’t be mad at him. i regret that at times, i think i could have disciplined him better - but in a way i felt like i had no right, not when he was doing so much for me. i was so lost without him when he first went away to college, i’d cry myself to sleep every night! but getting out and doing himself some good was the best thing he ever did. - KELLY FOSTER, mom ____________________________ i love her so much i hate her. it’s my fault, i shouldn’t have told her to come here, i shouldn’t have begged her. it was selfish. this whole thing has been selfish. it was selfish when we were deciding where to go to college and i told her we should stay together, but go off to different sides of the country. it was selfish when i broke up with her that one night so i could fuck piper, only to show up in her dorm room the next week and beg for her back. it was selfish to play the same games for four years. asking her to come with me was the most selfish move, though. i didn’t want to go, i didn’t want the job, i didn’t want to do great things, i didn’t want the change. fuck, i never would have wanted LA. but all of those don’ts came down to her. i didn’t want to go because i was so fucking sick of being away from her, and worrying about what she was doing every two seconds, worried about what i would do if i wasn’t with her for more than two days at a time. i didn’t want the job because it was going to put me hundreds of miles away for a few more years. i didn’t want to do great things because i could have a better time telling her what i was going to do. and i didn’t want the change because for once in my life i knew exactly what i wanted, and it was her, back at home. if i couldn’t have her back there, i wanted her with me. when she finally agreed i was on cloud nine. she made me want to do good at this job, so i could give her everything she wanted. she made me try harder, she pushed me, if it weren’t for her i don’t know where i’d be. but i can tell you this much, if it weren’t for me asking her to come, she probably wouldn’t hate me right now. and i wouldn’t hate her. in some totally fucked way i’m still happy with it, because i’d rather have to deal with her attitude and games and spending all of my fucking money than missing her. jesus, there was nothing worse than that. ____________________________ -------------THIS .. .. COSTS THIS--------------

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