ATWOOD, Zadie V.

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ZADIE VIOLET .  TWENTY SOMETHING THE AGES ARE ALL FUCKED UP  .  TEXAS NATIVE   SAN FRANCISCO DWELLING   .   ENTREPRENEUR   zadie     [ z ai d ee ] a spirit in the form of a skimpily dressed woman who appears to or is heard by members of a community as a sign that body shots have been consumed. a determined businesswoman with a strong mind for mathematics and keen eye for detail. a marijuana enthusiast who seldom bothers with much personal grooming or clothing. foul mouthed with a remarkably loud laugh, commonly referred to as 'low maintenance', and 'chilled'.          ORIGIN Texan American    RHYMES WITH Shady, crazy, lady    SYNONYMS Hot mess, wild child, good value    ANTONYMS Ladylike, reserved, proper, muted ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ "It's the funniest thing, Zadie's aptitude for business. We're not exactly a corporate family. But ever since she was a little girl playing shop with her sisters, you'd find her keeping track of her imaginary stock, muttering to herself about another order and needing to make more of a profit margin, though she didn't use that language exactly. I'm not joking, it was the funniest thing! At twelve she turned her nose up at Trump's business reputation, deriding him for being a trust fund baby with no business accumen. It's strange, her urge to succeed, because she's not very materialistic. Where Zara revelled in designer shoes and Zelda always looked to fund her craft, Zadie desired money as a measure of success, even if she didn't enjoy spending it. She's a very odd girl. On the one hand she wants nothing more than beer money and a bikini, but then on the other she has this drive to always do better than she has before. I think it's independence she craves most. I'm so proud of the business she's founded, even if the arrangement she has with her partner is a little... unconventional. I haven't told her father the finer details. But to have a thriving business at her young age is really something, and it's so nice to see her live up to her potential. I just hope she learns to enjoy the spoils of her success, instead of always hunting for the next big project." -      MAMA ATWOOD         ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ Before we get started here, I'd like to make one thing crystal clear:    Got that? I realize this makes me sound like a bitch. But think about what you're saying. When you stop me in the street to say you love my confidence, or you comment on my instagram to say how inspiring it is that I post pictures in my underwear, think about it. Why is my confidence noteworthy? Why wouldn't you comment on Gisele's instagram to say how inspiring her underwear shoots are? What you're saying that it's surprising that I'm confident, that I don't hate my body. That's only surprising if deep down you think there is something to hate. We're spoon fed this idealized image, and yes, I think you should love your body no matter what, but can we stop commenting on it? Can we stop making size relevant to our praise? You'd never say, "oh, she's so confident for someone so slim and beautiful", so please, let's stop this patronizing bullshit once and for all. Yes I'm confident, and if that inspires you to be more confident yourself, hell, I'm super flattered! But please, please, let's stop making size the thing women put all our self worth down to. ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ "Before I met Holden, I thought boyfriend was a dirty word. Not in that 'I hate men!!' instagram caption way, but in that it felt like something I needed like a hole in the head, a responsibility I'd never be able to fulfil. I mean, my former brother in law is dating another of my sisters and my other brother in law is the human equivalent of watching paint dry, so I've not been surrounded by good examples. But even if I had, when I look at people in relationships it's never much appealed. How do they find time to work? To see their friends? To have a fucking killer night out? I didn't see how you wouldn't have to compromise something to squeeze a boyfriend in, and there was nothing I was willing to compromise on. Then I met Holden. It was no big deal, a pretty standard hello. It was in San Francisco and he was sat outside the coffee place down from my apartment. I thought he was cute so I asked for a light despite having one in my purse, then I sat down next to him and asked him if he felt like a fuck. My bluntness is a huge turn off to more guys than you can imagine, but if he reacted at all he didn't show it, and we spent a great afternoon testing out every surface in my apartment. I figured that'd be it. But it wasn't. I can't explain how, but what followed was different from the usual. Sometimes you get clingy guys who feel a need to chase up and take you for dinner, as if they took something from you without paying. Those guys I block. He wasn't like the other guys either, the ones scanning their phone for easy lays at 3am. It was an organic thing, a chilled thing, and before we knew what was happening we were seeing each other almost every day. But it still never felt intense, I didn't feel like I was selling out. Because we're so compatible in so many ways. The biggest way is undoubtedly his talent and my business savvy, which has seen us open up a second branch of our store out in NYC. NYC! Can you even believe that? Most couples would tear themselves apart getting something like that together, but we don't fall out at all. At first glance you might think he was the chill one, 'cause I'm... I'm in your face, to put it lightly. But really H is the free spirit here, he's so creative and flighty and... I don't know, how do you say aimless but in a nice way? Fuck it, he's aimless. As much of a drunk whorey mess as I am, I have enough drive for two people, and that combo's been good to us. The other secret to our success as a couple? Not fucking exclusively. I'm not shitting you one bit when I say this: no part of me minds who he puts his dick in, so long as he's safe about it. Honestly. 100%. People find that so hard to believe! But it's true. Things get complicated when I start to think about him getting close to other girls in a non physical sense, so I just don't start to think about that, and that's worked perfectly so far. The worst thing is when I want to fuck and he's already with another girl, that's a buzzkill." "Ok look, I never claimed to have good taste in men. People get me and Holden, he makes sense. But the other guys I hook up with? Man, sometimes even I lie in bed with them and wonder what the fuck I'm doing with my life. The married banker, total stereotype. His cologne costs more than a month's rent and he likes to go on about my 'booty', even though I visibly cringe every time. He leaves his wedding band on and always finishes too quick. Then there's the biker, who makes fun of my menthols but doesn't actually inhale his own Marlboro reds. He's got no tattoos 'cause he's scared of needles and he's not as good in the sack as he looks like he'd be, but he tries, and he gets points for that. Then there's the bro. God, the bro. He's honestly the worst of this motley crew. He sends pictures of my body to his group chat and makes a point of taking me to dinner... I think he thinks I'm exclusive with him? Which would be sad, except he's definitely not exclusive with me. The worst thing about him is that he's so fucking good in bed. It physically hurts me to admit that his D's so bomb. The thing that you can read into this is that it's variety that matters, not so much quality. You could eat the best meal of your life, but wouldn't you get bored if you ate it all day, every day? You need the duds to find the keepers. Plus, it's fun to see what people are like when they're vulnerable, which they always are when they're naked in bed. The mask slips. That biker, he has a big brother he never felt he could live up to. The banker came from a pretty abusive home. The bro... yeah, there's nothing to redeem that douchelord. But he's not so bad when we're cuddling in the morning and he stops being such a staggering dick for a sec.  I love my lifestyle, but I've gotta be honest, sometimes I look at my friends and sisters in stable relationships and I wonder what that'd be like. Sometimes." ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ . ★ "freedom is the right to tell people what they do not want to hear."

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