VAN BUREN, Aisha C.

[aisha van buren]

aisha cassandra AISHA CASSANDRA VAN BUREN , TWENTY-THREE WILFULLY UNEMPLOYED & UNEMPLOYABLE ------- well, you've got your diamonds and you've got your pretty clothes and the chauffeur drives your car, you let everybody know PERSONALITY TEST RESULTS MBTI: ESTJ "ESTJs are often described as logical, take-charge kind of people. They are assertive and are very concerned with making sure that things run smoothly and according to the rules. They are committed to tradition, standards, and laws. They have strong beliefs and possess sensible judgement, and expect that other people uphold these same principles as well." strengths: practical, realistic, dependable, self-confident, traditional, strong leadership skills. weaknesses: insensitive, inflexible, not good at expressing feelings, argumentative, bossy. BIG FIVE OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE - 5 - very low traditionalist • practical • conservative • prefers traditional outlooks and technical problem-solving WORK ETHIC - 16 - low spontaneous • disorganised • prefers flexible plans • dislikes precise details EXTRAVERSION - 55 - middling reserved • prefers working alone • outgoing • assertive • enjoys direct leadership roles AGREEABLENESS - 1 - very low hard-headed • sceptical • competitive • proud • prefers competition over co-operation NATURAL REACTIONS - 49 - middling resilient • calm • prone to worry • easily upset ------- "For a long time it was easy for me to pretend that I hadn't fucked up the whole fatherhood thing entirely. I granted myself every excuse in the book; I'd been young, I had my business to build, I didn't even know for sure that both of the girls were mine... it's all bullshit. I was scared and I was very used to getting things my own way, it took me a long time to adjust to having to think about anyone but myself. It was easy to pretend that I hadn't fucked them up because their moms did such an incredible job at raising them without me, despite me. Charlotte is Vegas in miniature, even Tate got himself together in time to get a place at Columbia. Aisha was never on the same path as her siblings but she was happy and healthy... like I said, it was easy to pretend. Now that they're all so grown up it's easier to see where the cracks are, and to know in my heart that I'm responsible for them. Aisha is the most damaged. What I thought was a phase now looks like it's just the way she is. Lacking any sort of ambition, aimless. I was just the same way as a teenager but it was having kids in my early twenties that gave my life purpose, even if that purpose was to pretend it wasn't happening for a while. I've given Aisha all of my worst traits and on top of that I spoiled her. She hasn't worked for anything, doesn't know the meaning of it. Consistently she has defined herself as someone else's girlfriend. She hasn't done any sort of work for years and how has she managed that? Me. I've held her back, I've made it so that she doesn't have to. I have a lot of regrets in my life but the way that I raised Aisha is number one. I wish I knew how to fix it."

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