. black-eyed angels

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Pretty good spot when you want that kind of pace of life. Mom's there, also a bonus. Can't really take you at face-value, X.

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X A N D E R I miss your mom, what a woman. I get that. But things happen, people change.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y What a woman indeed. How's your mom? I get that too...your text messages did go through, after all. It just also feels gut instinct to be wary. Because that's all I really felt after everything.

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X A N D E R She’s okay thanks, surviving. Visiting soon as it happens. I feel really bad about that.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y I think my mom reached out to her, by the way. Feel like it's kind of...I don't know, strange to have conversations about loss over messenger. Hindsight's 20/20, as they say. Curious who the changed you may be.

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X A N D E R Yeah, I think they’re still in touch now. It sucked for my mom losing your mom as a friend, just another thing I feel bad about. Hope they work it out. OK, I’ll give you a preview: I still love techno, still party, still have the AC on max no matter the place or season. But now I don’t exist solely on fast food, I stopped taking gym selfies, and I’ve stopped having different girlfriends in different zip codes. How about you?

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y They've got some common ground, and my mom's pretty good about being accepting. There's hope there, easily. Solid start. Hmm...I still braid my hair, even if it's a lot shorter now. Would still eat watermelon every day if I could, still haven't found tamales as good as your mom's even out here. I kind of half lied though, LA's done a little bit of a number on me. More in the...outdoorsy, intuitive way though. I have crystals, I hike, I value my health, I think a little clearer. It's been nice.

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X A N D E R I hope so. I'll get her to make you some. So you're a green juice kinda girl now?

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Ugh, heaven, I can't wait. Green juice, tamales, hot lemon water, weed and bags of tropical Skittles. I have good balance.

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X A N D E R It gives me real satisfaction to think of you being happy, y’know. Like I assumed as much but knowing it gives me a real sense of inner peace, that I’m probably not entitled to.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Probably not, but we love that cliche 'ex roots for the girl in the end' in the movies. I'll flash you a megawatt at dinner, it'll really glitter. Might even laugh!

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X A N D E R Don't, it'll haunt me. Can you be a real bitch actually? Make me feel better about losing you?

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Oh c’mon, what’s the fun in that for me?

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X A N D E R I know, and you're incapable of even playing a bitch I'm sure.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Eh, I have my moments. Music industry’s never totally nice, you always find out the hard way.