make me forget

[cora wolfe]

c o r a Ok. I’ll send you my flight deets. Are you by chance also perusing additional real estate in that area? If so I know a couple creative consultants, very well respected. One’s even local to there!

[nate peterson]

N A T E Now why would I need property here?

[cora wolfe]

c o r a You’ve gotten annoyingly good at deflection, I’m kind of proud! Are you sure you want me to come?

[nate peterson]

N A T E Media training, baby! Of course, why wouldn't I?

[cora wolfe]

c o r a I feel like I confuse you, sometimes. Like…last year at the Christmas party I felt like you were kind of set on us not working. But we’ve still continued on with this little in between. Which I like, I like being with you no matter the circumstances. And I want to see you. I just want to make sure you do too.

[nate peterson]

N A T E I must confuse you too, I can see how mixed the signals are. I like being with you too, when it's just us... I think that whole Christmas party bullshit was triggering for me. I thought I'd feel more at home given how much things have changed since college but I still feel out of place in your world.

[cora wolfe]

c o r a Was it strange, going from just coming with me to being fully acknowledged? Those things are always going to be a part of my life. It doesn’t have to be a majority of it, we could figure that out, but my family’s always going to be insane. And important to me.

[nate peterson]

N A T E I thought it'd be satisfying, like a massive fuck you, but it just... wasn't. Being treated differently made me sad, as did not being treated differently, and it was 50/50. I know, and I love that about you, family is important to me too. But honestly? I can't with your family.

[cora wolfe]

c o r a I didn't realize impressing my extended family meant so much to you? If you like my dad, and Sadie, and can tolerate my mom and my cousins then I don't really care about the others.

[nate peterson]

N A T E That's basically your whole family? Also it's not just them, it's your friends, they're the same way. I don't know. I go from feeling like a fraud as some hotshot athlete to feeling like a fraud as your boyfriend.

[cora wolfe]

c o r a Well they're my friends for a reason, so. You don't get to pick and choose - you want me, they're around. You don't want me, they're not around. I don't get why you feel like a fraud, either. You put in the work, you literally never took a day off from training when I was around to witness it. You deserve what you've made of yourself - like, get cocky again! You deserve to!

[nate peterson]

N A T E I don't know Cora. I just don't know. I regress around you so much.

[cora wolfe]

c o r a I feel like a therapist that’s against myself right now, but you need to do things that you want to do and make you happy. Not to spite me, or impress me or my family or like, Carol who worships Coke as a religion in Des Moines, Iowa.

[nate peterson]

N A T E The Coke thing I did for money, obviously. And my sister, who loves Coke. Honestly I'm doing what I want to do. You're the only question mark.

[cora wolfe]

c o r a Carol probably thinks you did it for her too, she'll go buy her MLS season tickets now. Then fuck it, I'll just stop putting pressure on a bigger picture. Right now, in the moment, what do you want?