. tate mccarthy

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE I know. The thought's just dangerous, too. I'm not claiming innocence either. How are you? Honestly. This is all a lot at one time.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE You're not allowed to say fine, give me something else. I was really happy to see you, I feel guilty that it's blown up into a big thing, I feel guiltier that I want to see you again anyway. I'm shocked about the Freddie and Aisha thing and I still get sad sometimes realizing that there's so many lives I suddenly know so little about. I got in a fight with someone because I said I wasn't over you, but I don't regret saying it either. I wish I could crawl in your head and figure out what you're thinking, because I never feel like I know. That's where I'm at.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE I do, but you also are as big of a bottler as I am sometimes. And I don't need you exploding too. It's not a race though, Tate. I'm still here, it all could still be an option. But I would want it to be because you want it to be me, not because everyone's suddenly so many steps past where you thought you'd be and you feel like you need to catch up. If that's how you're feeling, or your dad's making you feel, then that's not fair. You didn’t fuck anything up. Also I feel badly speaking about this, but if that's how your relationship right now makes you feel too, like you're just alleviating some pressure, then I don't know. I'd hope it wouldn't, from all I've heard she's lovely.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE I wish you didn't, but either way it's nice to know where you stand. And that's fine too. Dating is dating for a reason - for all you know it's just been fun for her too, I don't know. Wishful thinking maybe. Does your family like her?

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE You need to talk to her. Could help with the 'I don't know what I want' of it all.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE It's fine if the answer stays 'I don't know', too. Keep me posted on Freddie, though. If or when that happens.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Hope you had fun at the wedding! I'm all moved out to a friend's, so no jumpscare for when everyone gets back.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Yeah, been a fun hurrah before I finally have a structured day again. Weather's been perfect. Did you? Do you all come back today or tomorrow?

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Six weeks, so basically. Back to the Hamptons or back to the city?

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Can't say I didn't enjoy it by the end. But ready to be back before my memory starts failing me. Might have heard. You alright?

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Maybe. It's why I felt alright being at the house but didn't exactly expect a run in. Not much, sometimes. Though a wedding immediately after probably isn't the most fun place to be.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE Never confirmed or denied! Still, feels like I got caught trespassing. Your favorite. Now I see why you left.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE One of the nights, on accident. Drunken muscle memory. Happy bride, happy weekend. All that matters, missing date or not. Did you talk to Freddie more?

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE It was funny, it felt like a walk of shame back to the guest room for absolutely no reason. Ah. That must still be strange to watch.

[rosie de la cruz]

RORO 1 NEW MESSAGE How so?