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[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y I’m just trying to be honest.

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c Yeah, I know. I’m trying to avoid being defensive.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y How do you feel about it, then?

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c Same way I’ve always felt. I own my past behaviour and how people feel about it is their own business, I have no control over that.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y And even after you and Joe talked, nothing changed?

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c No. He didn’t say anything that surprised me, I’d have said all the same things if I were your brother.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Ok. Good to know. I'm not stepping out of this, or anything, for the record. That was just hard for me.

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c And I’m honestly not trying to sway you one way or the other, I want you to know what you’re signing up for and to sign up anyway. And if you don’t, I’ll understand, I promise.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Just reading all my fine print. Did you talk about me a lot, in AA?

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c A bit. Probably not as much as Chloe, or Alessia, because they're so entwined with my addiction. But yes.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y It was kinda funny, someone came up to me and said it was nice to meet me and it didn’t seem like it was from an artist’s perspective. I guess that’s why I asked.

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c Of course I described you before you came, but in general I like to keep you to myself. It feels too easy to corrupt, and people have their opinions anyway.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y Thank you for inviting me, it meant a lot. I’m sure it wasn’t easy - I didn’t really know what to expect, but I’m glad I got to be there. Challenging questions and all.

[isaac mcavoy]

z a c Thank you for coming. It’s such a big part of my life now, and will be for the rest of it - god willing. So it’s part of the package, I want you to know what you’d be getting into.

[lily mccarthy]

L I L Y I want you to know what you’re getting into with me, too. Spontaneous furniture purchases, nosy, personal questions and fun bouts of self doubt and all.