ASTAIRE, Alexander L.

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full name Alexander Luke Astaire date of birth 11.03.90 (25) home town Sacramento, CA current city Los Angeles, CA education UCLA class of '13, IDS major occupation reality TV star Μ Ε Γ Α Σ  Α Λ Ε Ξ Α Ν Δ Ρ Ο Σ "He also grew up serious-minded, untiring, passionately keen to succeed in any difficult task, and yet more keen the more difficult it was." ALEX VS. XANDER "Alex is what my friends and family call me. I'm not sure why I decided to use my less common nickname when I went on TV... I guess it's a small reminder that it's constructed reality, and not the real thing. Kind of reminds the people who count that it's not really real." true qualities: determination, ambition, drive, manipulation, desire for control, fear of failure, anxiety, a need for perfection, a capacity for hard graft, a desire for a better world, a devotion to self improvement, a mild lack of empathy, selfishness, possessiveness, competitiveness. "Xander is who I am on TV, and when I get recognized on the street. He's probably not someone I'd really want to be, not for real." superficial qualities: charming, breezy, self confident, effortless, laid back, friendly, willing to help out, flirtatious, materialistic, lackadaisical, carefree, team player, other-regarding, clever, witty, insightful, cheery, quiet, indulgent. "I am not afraid of an army of lions led by a sheep; I am afraid of an army of sheep led by a lion." G U I L T Y   P L E A S U R E S "And when he saw the breadth of his domain, he wept for there were no more worlds to conquer." I can't tell you how much I hate my sister's 'profession'. Look at that picture, just look at it. Tits out, pouty lips, sultry eyes... it literally makes me heave. I've sent it to dad but he's powerless to stop her. She's a child, mentally if not physically... I can't fucking stand it. Does she seriously think anyone will buy that she's the smart, funny, immensely capable girl she is with those pictures floating round the internet? Does she really think she'll be able to get a real job when she graduates? Maybe you'll think I'm a hypocrite, but she needs to think of what's good for her, long term. That's never been Jules' strong suit. Fuck it, I'll have to go to New York and talk to her myself. "Alexander,  reflecting on his friends degenerating into sloth and luxury, told them that it was a most slavish thing to luxuriate, and a most royal thing to labor." "Xander? Fuck Xander, I don't know a Xander. The asshole you're referring to is my ex boyfriend, and his name is Alex. Alex Astaire, doesn't that name just sound like trouble? I shoulda known better. Fucking hell, I'm still so mad at myself for falling for his shit, I really am. Back in high school I dated his best friend for years, Darren, and he really was the cutest lil thang. Such a sweetie. I was such a grade A cunt to leave him for Alex. But you have to realize what he was in school. He was a superstar, one of those people who had real star quality, real presence. When Alex walked into a room, you knew about it. He was handsome, tall, athletic... but he was smart too, top of the class, with the kind of smile that just makes your heart ache in your chest. More than anything he was nice. He stood up for the dweeby kids when they got bullied, and he got on with the stoners as much as the jocks. I'd never met anyone like him. None of us had. That was the myth anyway, and we all bought into it. The truth about Alex is hella different. 'Cause he's a fraud, it's all a lie. He's not this effortlessly laid back football hero, he's a shark, a ruthless motherfucker who'd sink if he stopped swimming for even a second. I didn't realize it as it was happening, but he stole me away from D, snaked his way in there with little throwaway comments and gestures... god, I was so stupid. I thought Darren was jealous, but now I see what he saw. Everything about that man is coldly calculated, mathematically worked out and stringently practiced until it seems natural. He's scary. I'd like to say I realized all this and kicked his psycho ass to the curb. Unfortunately I was young and dumb and like I said, no one really saw him as he was, not until they had the benefit of hindsight. In any case, I got my wake up call when he dumped me. Sure, he made out like he was doing it for me. He told everyone that he'd had to let me go because I was so unhappy with him, and those suckers bought it, they bought it even though my devestation was plain to see. Why he really did it we'll never know, but my guess would be the little bit of weight I gained, and the fact I decided I wasn't going to go to college after all. I no longer sat with the Alex Astaire vision, I had to go. Fuck him." "There is nothing impossible to him who will try." Μ Ε Γ Α Σ  Α Λ Ε Ξ Α Ν Δ Ρ Ο Σ your name lex (judge me) play-by janis danner member group famous