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Post by Deleted on May 10, 2016 22:46:09 GMT
 | Natalia Vivan White (born March 13, 1990) is an American sportscaster. She currently hosts FOX College Football for Fox Sports. White was previously a co-host of College GameDay on ESPN and a contributor for Good Morning America on the ABC network. She also has an on-air presence at many major sporting events, including the Super Bowl and World Series.
______________________  ______________________  "Nat and I dated only for a year, not too long, not too short.. but if you’re serious with anyone after thirty you should probably see some marriage potential. I saw a whole lot of it with her, we’d never talked about it, but I figured we were on the same page and that’s where it’d go some day. I loved her, even when she couldn’t make up her mind to save her life, would take a grueling two hours to get ready, would lose her car keys every morning and call me crying. Not so much when everything was my fault, or she’d throw a temper tantrum better than a kid in its terrible two’s, or when she decided to have her cousin’s baby.
I didn’t get it then, I still don’t get it now. It never sat well with me, if I’m being honest that was probably mostly because she never asked how I’d felt about it. By the time I found out she was already three weeks in, and no going back. That seems like something you should mention. It was selfish in a way, we had a lot of fun, and I knew her pregnant for nine months would leave us with little of that. It was weird, watching her change, her moods get worse, and have this kid inside her that wasn’t mine, or even hers for that matter. And then there was that added layer, where the kid actually happened to be the guy I bend over backwards for day and night to save his ass, with little to no thanks. You think I got a thank you for borrowing my girlfriend’s body for 9 months? Nope, didn’t get that either." ______________________  Everyone used to say I was selfish, by the end of every fight that’s what the verdict would come down to. I think I wanted to help, but I think I wanted to prove I wasn’t a selfish piece of shit at the same time.
People are always saying the anxiety that comes before doing something is worse than actually doing it, but that wasn’t true this time. I had no anxiety beforehand, I was excited, even. Pregnancy didn’t scare me, and the idea of a get your body back challenge excited me. They said it came down to a lot more than just carrying him and having him, but I naively thought I was stronger than that. Why would I care so much about giving him up after nine months? Luna and Roscoe would always be in my life, so would he. It was almost better than the real deal. They could spend the sleepless nights with him, and I would get to see him happy in the afternoon if I felt like it.
It didn’t turn out how I thought I would.
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The first trimester was the easiest. I was lucky, morning sickness only lasted a couple weeks. The cravings were wild. I wanted things I’ve never had in my life before. I was putting pickles in mint chocolate chip ice cream, absolutely repulsive thinking of it now. And other than that the symptoms were minimal, and beyond bearable. I was barely showing at three months, and I think it was a bit of a mental thing. Since I couldn’t tell I was pregnant except for when I wanted the strangest foods, I’d almost forgot there was a little one growing there. Tyler and I were still doing good, at least I thought.. I wanted to sleep with him all the time, the sex was the best it’d ever been. I think it was easy for him to pretend I wasn’t pregnant too since there was barely a bump.
| lexa, hannah, resident (coding @ rae) |
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