carnagie, astrid a.

[astrid carnagie]

ASTRID ALORA CARNAGIE twenty-six. new york. student _______________________________________ BASICS NAME: Astrid Alora Carangie AGE: 26 BIRTHDAY: April 2nd, 1992 HOMETOWN: Washington, D.C. ZODIAC: Aries MBTI: ENTJ-A (The Commander) _______________________________________ SCREWED MOST DOWNLOADED 01.06 --- What We Talk About When We Talk About Anal 01.09 --- More Than Just Joe feat. Aisha Van Buren 02.02 --- Rape Accusations & Fairweather Feminists 02.08 --- Jon Hamm's Big Dick Privilege 02.17 --- Even Porn Stars Get Social Anxiety At Parties 03.01 --- The Last Monogamous Millennial In New York _______________________________________ RECENTLY BINGED _______________________________________ FAVORITE FICTIONAL WOMEN _______________________________________ JUNE 06, 2014 What do you do when the worst day of your life becomes your best--when life goes on and it's been a year and you haven't even noticed? The launch party for Screwed wasn't a big deal in comparison to what the show became---me, Athena, and a handful of our college girlfriends. At the time, there weren't a lot of guy vying to be on the show, or really anyone excited about it but us. How many people do you know that have started a podcast? Judging by the messages I used to get on OkCupid, a lot. Men especially. Something about listening to themselves talk. The spring of 2014 was busy. Athena and I had the whole podcast planned out before it even went live. That's because we both have an organized streak, an aversion to the anxiety brought on my procrastination. My parents were still paying for my misc bills at the time. Four years in college in California plus trying to make it in New York City just after that doozy of a tuition bill wasn't exactly the recipe for financial success. I never tried hard enough in high school to get any scholarships. I try to come by it honestly. Why did I think I was qualified to host a sex positive podcast? A Gender Studies degree, a handful of media electives, and a fluke internship at BuzzFeed video in my junior year that I definitely didn't deserve. It could be said that I never had to work at anything and that is true. I also wasn't really good at anything either. But then Screwed came along and changed everything---Athena changed everything. So on June 6th, we toasted with Prosecco in my studio apartment and Athena hit live. I remember looking at the Blue Yeti mic over on my desk that I had used to record the damn thing, but then my gaze slid to that stupid screensaver I put on the iMac--you know the one--all the Tumblr girls have it. It was 9:47 and for the first time all day I thought about where I had been on this day last year. But then Athena, that beautiful force Athena, grabbed me by the hand and tugged me toward the bottle for another. She hadn't said anything about it, but she'd known to keep me busy that day. I almost wonder if she did it on purpose. I'll never understand why some women say they don't get along with other women. Women saved me. JUNE 06, 2013 Rewind a year. I won't describe it here---if you want to know what it was like, ask any woman you know. There will be variations of the same story, but it's the same story nevertheless. I always swore that if it ever happened to me, I would go to the cops. And I would have to, if Dash hadn't taken it upon himself to get his own form of justice. When I broke it off, I expected him to understand the nuance of what it meant to support a woman. But men can't help but prioritize their own rage.  Dash pops up in my life every now and then. In 2012 when we first met, I couldn't believe he was Senator Harrington's son, that someone so right-wing could produce someone so not. He had all the beliefs I would want him to--self-proclaimed feminist, voted for progressives in the primaries, registered to vote ever since he was eighteen. He taught me a lot about the system when we first met, how it was nearly impossible to change. Growing up in D.C., I thought I knew what politics were. I looked him up on Facebook just before the last election. He still posts about Hilary--how evil she is. Our relationship wasn't just debates. It didn't become complicated until much, much later. He indulged every phase I ever had. When I wanted to go thrift shopping, he took me, occasionally drove me up and down the valley to the Goodwills and Salvation Armys I hadn't yet plundered. When I tried my hand at gaming, he downloaded anything I could have ever asked for on the PS3. He sat through endless hours of crime thrillers--last April, despite not talking for over a year, he sent me a copy of Sharp Objects when he heard that HBO was remaking it. Last year I took that stupid love language quiz, Dash's love language would have absolutely been gifts. He was supportive, just not when I needed him to be. Not in the ways I needed him to be. But, when it came right down to it, being the son of a Senator was always more important. Protecting his father's image was always more important. I called him a handful of times to be on Screwed. He's never responded to my request for interview. _______________________________________ THIS EPISODE OF SCREWED IS SPONSORED BY ... --- --- ---

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