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o s c Fair enough, I'm sure you've seen it all. I can't, she'll be bracing for it and then she'll definitely end things forever. Really? He was always nice to me. Charlotte didn't like it but think that was more about them than you, she likes you. You don't have to be. Tate's a nice guy but he's also pretty standard as a rich douche (no offense intended). Make him feel like he's lost you with no chance of getting you back and suddenly he'll do anything. Rich guys hate not getting what they want.

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E ....Osc, you fucked someone else. She's got a right, you have to brace for that too. It's not you, specifically. Just thought our friendship was weird, I don't know. It's hard to explain when he's very much from one side and we stand quite outwardly on the other. I don't think I'm what he really wants right now though, honestly. We tried to reconcile and it didn't go well, so it's just kind of stuck for now. I'm also too exhausted from work every day to scheme something up. Going to bed and being sad's way easier.

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o s c She can be so cold, it'll kill me when she inevitably blocks me. I'll honestly probably never see her again, she's so strong willed. Our friendship is pretty weird, I'll give him that. Not helped by my drunk dialling, sorry about that. I'm sorry Rosie. Have you tried dating anyone since?

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E I'm still caught up on this, to be honest. You waited two years, and I'm sure that wasn't your first drunken night out. Then all of a sudden it's a double whammy of your phone call and hooking up with someone? Ok yeah, sure, but hate to be stark about it but I'd never go for you. I think I just thinned his trust levels over time. No time! I work probably as much as Charlotte! If not, more. It is exhausting. And I'm sure I work with some of the idiots that have slid into my DM's.

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o s c Not unconnected. It was at my flat, I was feeling self pitying. Did I tell you Simone and I bought a place? Anyway, this girl, I know her pretty well, she's a sweetheart, been S's friend for years and years. She got in this accident a couple years ago that left her with this scar on her face that she's really insecure about... anyway. I told her about the call, we talked about it, we talked about everything... I think that's the real betrayal, you know. She's not some random girl, I like her, always have. I mean thanks for that!! But I know, it's never been like that for me either.  I have eyes, obviously, but you've been a really good friend to me.  Well maybe it's time to focus on yourself?

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E Sounds like you also found two people in the same night you wanted to talk about something with. That's emotional, too. It doesn't sound like this was some grand mistake anymore. It sounds like you wanted a way out, and felt justified to tell me I should be ok with doing the same. Yeah, I do too. But I like where we've stood. To be clear though, I do not support what you've done. That's what my therapist's been saying. I have one of those now, wild!

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o s c Something like that, yeah. I think we were both just trying to make each other feel better, like I was with you. To be fair Ro, girls like you date guys like him. That's the way of the world, no matter how broke you might have been. I don't either, I feel sick about it. Of course you do! Saves you offloading drunkenly to anyone who'll listen, I'm sure.

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E Can you be honest with me about something? I'm soberly offloading to you, it's my exchange. Tate pays for them, also. Another rope that's not really cut.

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o s c Probably too honest, hit me. Do you think your therapist tells him what you've been saying, like Don and Betty Draper?

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E What do you believe more: what you were drunkenly telling me, or what you're saying now? This isn't the 60's, so I'd hope doctor-client privilege is a bit more stern these days. Don't make me paranoid!

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o s c What I said then. Honestly, when we talk like this, I'm always keen to be supportive of you, but I'm also working pretty hard to avoid sounding like I'm hitting on you. 'Cause you're probably, like, one of my best friends now, somehow, not sure when that happened but for me it did. I'm really paranoid I'll accidentally do something to make it weird, and slagging your boyfriend off feels like it might make it weird.

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E Got it. Even if he's my ex, yeah, probably. I guess it's also hard too because I got him day-to-day so much. He can be so different. And you're one of mine, too, for the record - happened out of circumstance, if anything. The only time I've ever felt weird talking to you was that phone call, and I think it's because I knew you probably meant what you were saying. And now I know you were also stepping off some metaphorical ledge. Are you still talking to Simone's friend now?

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o s c Yeah, there's that too. I don't know him well and what I know of him was him being nice to me, so I feel like a bit of a cunt telling you you're better off. But as your friend: you're better off. Phew, that could have been v embarrassing for me! God, feels good to have explained that, I was kinda walking on eggshells. Mhm. We just keep apologising to each other, back and forth.

[rosie de la cruz]

R O S I E He's a nice person. I always think that's a terrible trait to call someone, but he really is always just...kind, to everyone. Never treated me any different. And thanks for being honest. You know who you should really be apologizing to though? Charlotte.

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o s c Nor me. Kind of crazy when you compare him to Aisha, it's like they're from different planets. Also, only you can really know your relationship. My opinion's just an opinion, I trust your judgment. I'M TRYING.