. blazed out

[naima bell]

Nai it was easier and more convenient to omit, just say that. well i wish i had been able to know, i would have slowed down or put on a better show.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R Of course it was easier. Haha, you were incredible, I'm the one on a learning curve. Sorry about that too.

[naima bell]

Nai you're sweet, attractive, kind, ambitious. you are probably about to embark on a massive ho journey, this is a big change.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R It was a shitty thing to do, I really am sorry. But it also made me realize how much things needed to change.

[naima bell]

Nai i appreciate it. don't ever do that again. it must have been hard but it sounds like it needed to be done. i'm sorry for what you're about to go through.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R It's alright, it ended a long time before it actually ended. How's LA?

[naima bell]

Nai how are you feeling about it all? actually. it's been nice lately, i've just been hanging out and working, enjoying the almost fall vibes.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R Relieved, enjoying my new freedom. But I feel guilty about that too. Is fall even a thing in California?

[naima bell]

Nai how come? barely, definitely not like toronto. but i will happily take a few overcast days or cool mornings. and decoration shopping for october first.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R We barely saw each other so it doesn't feel like anything has changed, I'll be talking to a girl and I'll suddenly feel like I'm doing something wrong... it's like my brain hasn't kept up with the change. Do you ever miss Toronto? Me too, love this time of year.

[naima bell]

Nai you’re about to shake everything up and see what comes out. all these parts to explore solo. i do, i usually visit once or twice a year since everyone’s back there.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R Just playing catch up with everyone else. Would you move back?

[naima bell]

Nai you're allowed to be freaked out and excited at the same time. give it some time but welcome to singlehood. if i needed to, like someone was ill or i needed to get back on my feet. i know it's always there and that's comfort enough. nyc was fun though.

[river hawkins]

R I V E R Any tips for a newbie? Yeah I can't imagine living anywhere else now.

[naima bell]

Nai avoid jumping into another relationship for a while, like at least a year. try new things - hobbies, music, friends, goals. feel your feelings, let it out. where were you before the city?