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[kendra santisi]

It looked like revenge, from the outside. The ultimate form of it, two people so entangled in each other's old relationships that it was impossible to separate it from a very new one. Zac had even mentioned it once, Kendra never taking it to heart until this very moment, palms clutching against her tiny frame from within her pockets. Were they just using each other? Was it the fun before the silence? She stood to lose the most, reflecting solemnly once she finally looked to him. He'd always have the band - she'd never have her best friend again. It's suddenly too much dwelling for the night, her mind so exhausted once he's mentioned her travels that she can barely process what he's saying. It takes Kendra a minute to even nod warily in acceptance, keyed in to the fact that he'd never technically apologized but trying to let it go. “Sorry, I was just...tired and dramatic," she offers instead, brushing it all away dismissively. As if it was that easy, as if she hadn't choked up the minute he'd mentioned her name. An inevitable in their future - how fun that would be. “I'm sure if we keep it about everything but sex we'll be fine anyway." She can't resist the quip, gone off the edge of her tongue, immaturity showing through those 22-year old eyes before they dared against his. Even she had no idea what she was doing.